I got it!

Yay!

Oh yeah, I'm smart!

I just, at 4am, am able to fully understand yesterday's quote- Woo Hoo for my learning disability!

My problem was that I perceived the word "disappear" as something negative. I thought it meant that in order to love others as family we had to stop loving our family in that true manner. Now I see a more positive interpretation of the word "disappear" and so the quotation has a whole different meaning for me!

So my present understanding is that if we are offered enough love early in life from our family members and a supportive environment within our family, then our family ties will not seem to exist as we grow older because we will be secure and confident enough to extend the love and support we received from our family to every other group and relationship that we encounter, while knowing that we are not required to give our family member's preferential treatment due to the fact that it should be assumed that they will always love us and we them.(Wow! I don't think I'll ever need to worry about getting Alzheimer’s because my sentence structures are so confusing! See: Alzheimer's for more info!)

Furthermore, there is no need to define a family as a group from which we receive love and acceptance because, ideally, we should be receiving this in other places as well. We should not only treat our family members well and be treated well by our families but also mirror this reciprocity within daily life and the larger society as a whole. What a lovely thought.

I am so so tired, bordering on delirious. Half a paper left, which will be finished by tomorrow afternoon in addition to an artsy project that I'm actually looking forward to doing. However, after I finish the paper tomorrow I will consider myself done!

Good night All. I will be dreaming of an idyllic world in which we all can conceive of an idyllic, unconditionally loving family.